see, i said i was fickle- i haven't written a post in almost a month, and as far as the other interests i mentioned previously, well, let's just say that i'm wearing clothes from ann taylor loft, i'm buying my lunch today, and it would be a miracle if i went to the gym this week. i do still check bluelines pretty frequently though...
today is J's birthday, and i'm feeling like a failure of a wife, as i don't think he's having a particularly great one. we went out of town with friends this weekend to watch some baseball, and then last night i organized a dinner with the same friends to celebrate (he has to work tonight, unfortunately) and gave him his present (tickets to see the dahli lama speak when he's in town next month). but he was in a funk all last night, and now i'm paranoid that he didn't have any fun. i know that's more his stuff than mine (he's an introspective one, my guy, and tends to get morose around his birthday), but i still feel like i've let him down. will i ever stop feeling the need to please everyone, all the time? when did it become an accepted truth for me that it is my sole responsibility to make everyone happy, all the time, even at my own expense?
sheesh- fickle AND a whiny bitch; this self-discovery thing is not really going my way...
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thanks for the heads up, i'll leave a silly singing message tonight. i totally get the responsible for everyone else's happiness thing - i have that malady in a big way. its very hard to get away from - have you pinpointed where it comes from? fyi, its spelled dalai lama (sorry, i couldn't let that one go). love yooooo.
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